And I am more than slightly buzzed at the moment...must have been the Cheez-its. I am looking for an answer in this movie, that is nothing new. I have always looked to movies, books, anything that might reveal the key to what might "save" me. I have always been drawn to this particular movie for some reason.
He comes to the end of himself, he realizes that he can not manipulate the future to suit his whims, and instant gratification. Eventually he comes clean, admits everything. That does not save him, but it provides a springboard he uses to change himself. Little by little, in small steps everyday, he begins to become more than just a vessel to satisfy his lusts, he begins to live with purpose. And here is the finale, he does not care if he has to do it over and over, he is happy just to do it better a little more everyday. He is happy in the "now" of his life, regardless of how it turns out tomorrow, because he is living it today.
The old man dies, and no matter what he does to try and stop it from happening, the old man keeps dying. At last he looks up to the sky as if to say, "I can't do it all can I?" Then he goes on to do all that he can do to help people.
He is trying to live up to this woman, trying to deserve her love and in the process becomes a better man. He is the same person, only his actions are different, he goes from self serving to genuinely compassionate for others welfare. He loses the ego of "himself". Selfless acts that ultimately become self serving...through caring for others he learns to love himself, be comfortable with himself, who he is not what he can get.
Ahh what the hell do know, I still am not getting it. I am going to pass out now.
Here is one thing I do know, there must be allot of other fat people watching this movie right now because this lame ass commercial for Leptropin keeps coming on. "Only for the significantly over weight" - talk about dangling a carrot. Read the fine print (use in conjunction with a diet and exercise program) no shit! - if I could do those to things regularly, why the hell would I need the stupid pills? Fat ass suckers.
Okay, last line before he actually gets out of his loop - "No matter what happens tomorrow, or for the rest of my life, I'm happy now because I love you."
Okay, now I really am going to pass out, this late night self indulgent gut stuffed rant is over.
later
Awesome analysis of the key phrase from a great movie. Beautifully said. First time I read your blog. Be well.
Posted by: John Bond | January 18, 2010 at 21:23